Pictures

OK. So, I got the retouched the photos yesterday and they looked great - too great. In fact, I looked pretty, something I've never been accused of. I fretted for a little while about whether I should just go with it and accept those files. Then I could have gone to get the reproductions today and have the pictures tomorrow. But, I decided to take the extra day and get them done right. I want the picture to look like me. I'm not afraid of the lines on my face nor the pock marks. I'm a character actor and they lend character to my face.

Tomorrow: Deliver files to Reproducitons
Thursday: Headshots in hand

Then hit the ground running.

Thank you, Scott, for your great work!

Audition 3

Yesterday, Friday September 25th, was my third audition. It was for legit agent Holly Vegter of Hartig Hilepo Agency, Ltd, at One on One. I auditioned with a monologue by Theresa Rebeck, from Katie and Frank, I went in a little earlier then I wanted to, (I guess they were running ahead of schedule. ) The audition was...I don't know. I feel like my ability to be fully in the here and now, to be relaxed, and to really let myself, my true humanity, come through the monologue, is still a work in progress. In class I feel great, in auditions, nerves and self-consciousness still abide. But I guess that's the purpose of the project, to begin to master the art of auditioning. I wish I would have remembered or taken a moment before my audition to think of some good questions. I would have asked Holly what she saw my age range as and what types of roles she'd think I could be cast for. Holly was a pleasure to audition for and very sweet.

Project Title: Audition for representation
Location: One on One NYC, 34 West 27th Street, New York, NY 10001
Date: Friday, September 25, 2009
Time: 6:50pm
Submitted by: Self
Medium: Legit (Film, TV, Theater)
People In the Audition Room: Holly Vegter, Agent, Hartig Hilepo Agency, Ltd.

Auditon 2

So, just this morning I completed my second audition. I was at JFK, had just finished applying for my computer loan, and had 1/2 hour to kill before my shuttle ride back home. I was in the JetBlue Inflight Crew Lounge and decided to create an audition opportunity. I gathered up three co-workers who had a few minutes to spare and were willing and able to participate: Michelle Hendrie, CindyAnn Williams and Dean Burns. We went into an open conference room, I briefly explained the project and then I performed a two-minute contemporary monologue from Katie and Frank by Theresa Rebeck. I think they had fun and I was so grateful to them for jumping on board and supporting my project. Thanks again guys! Now onto number 3!

The Beast has died

I power on my computer this morning to get to work. I plan on searching for auditions, researching and...something is wrong. The screen is all funky and not good funky either...it looks bad. Half the screen is black, half the screen has these weird static-like lines. Uh-oh. Power on, power off. Still the same. Remove battery, replace battery. No good. I'm on the phone with my friend Suzie and I'm giving her the play-by-play. This is NOT a good time for my computer to give me issues. I need to solve this problem and now.

Three weeks ago, while standing on-line for The Moth with my friend Christine, a friendly looking guy came around with flyers for his computer repair shop. I thought he looks like a good guy and kept his flyer. I turned to the flyer for joeNYC this morning and dialed. The rate, as advertised was $25 an hour...Not horrible, depending on how bad it was going to be. I explain to Terrance on the phone that the computer is a Dell (I'll never buy one again), over 3 years old, the hard drive has already been replaced once, and I had a feeling it might be croaking but was hoping it would last me just a little longer....I can't spend too much.

I bring the computer in. Terrance boots up the Beast (as I call it) and let's out a low-pitch "Oh." Not good. That sound was not instilling me with confidence. His recommendation: get a new computer, probably not worth the cost the labor and parts, but there is something good. He can save my data for me. I come back with a USB drive, he saves all my data. Checking computer out: $25, Data save:$30. I ask what I can do with the Beast, Joe (the owner, who handed it out the flyers) says the recycling options out there aren't the best, but if I wanted to donate it to them, he'd give me a discount. I walked out with all my docs, music, pictures spending only $25 and am currently applying for a loan through my credit union so I can be up and running with a new computer in a few days! "Ain't No Mountain High Enough" should have been my theme song today. Currently on a computer at JetBlue Headquarters. Back to searching for more auditions! Need computer repair? These guys were really nice: www.joenyc.com

I am my own worst enemy.

No really. I truly am. I know I'm not alone in this, but I've got to find a way to address this issue.

One of the major issues that's held me back over the years has been self-sabotage. Why do I set myself up for failure? Because then I won't be found out for a fraud somewhere down the line. I have control over my own downfall.

Case in point:  I won't be making The Flea auditions. Why? Because I took so freaking long to decide on headshots. And why did I take so freaking long to decide on headshots? Because then I wouldn't have to audition and could fail by my own terms.

Now I will give myself some credit. I am getting better at this. I do believe in my work. I do believe that I can succeed at this acting thing. I have now identified the pattern and I can now start to break that pattern. That's one of the most important things to me about embarking on this adventure: breaking the old destructive patterns.

I can't linger on this misstep. I can only move forward.

What have I done?

Headshots chosen. Should be ready for duplication on Friday.
Scene memorized. Rehearsing with Lara this afternoon. Gonna rock it.
2 new classical monologues memorized.
Allowing myself the failure so that I can learn and move on.

Moving on...

AUDITION 1

So, today was my first audition! 1 down 14 more to go! I auditioned for The Flea Theater's non-union resident company, The Bats. Luckily, I was able to cajole my wonderful friend and incredible actor Katia Hoerning into auditioning and waiting on line with me. We readied ourselves at her place and got on line at about 3:00pm. While waiting on line, I was greeted by a wonderful surprise, my phenomenal acting teacher Larry Singer strolled by after teaching his Tuesday class (if you want a great acting teacher check out: http://thelarrysingerstudios.com).

Katia and I signed in at 5:00pm and got our audition slots. Before I went in, I had a great sense of love for everyone auditioning that day. We both wished everyone to "break their legs". I performed Helena from All's Well That Ends Well. I went in fairly relaxed and present. My nerves did come into play during the audition and I felt my performance was a bit uneven...BUT the goal was to audition, not to be perfect. I did receive a "nice" from the artistic director Jim Simpson. Katia rocked her audition as well, she did fabulous, I could hear it through the door! Thanks Katia for being my audition buddy!

Project Title: The Bats - The Flea Theater

Location: The Flea Theater, 41 White Street, New York, NY 10013

Date: Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Time: Got on line @ 3:00pm / audition slot 6:45pm

Submitted by: Self

Medium: Theater

Role: To be a "Bat" (a non-union company member)

People in
the Audition
Room: Jim Simpson-Artistic Director & Sherri Kronfeld-Assistant Director

The Launch: Part Deux by Kevin

I am so excited to be working with Lara, an actress whose work I have admired for some time, on this exciting project. Currently we're working on a scene from "Closer", so that we'll be able to audition together. I've just had new headshots taken and I'm waiting for the retouching and delivery of the electronic files. I hope to get to the open auditions at The Flea, as well. I'm also working on getting my audition pieces in solid shape.

Meanwhile, Kean University, where I went to school will be having a retrospective/reunion/fundraiser on 10/2 in which I'll be performing. For the retrospective, I was initially working on Jaques's "All the world's a stage..." speech from "As You Like It". After some discussion with Peggy Dunn, the amazing woman who'll be coaching me, it was decided that the piece was a little dark in contrast to the whole show. We decided to work on Hamlet's speech to the players instead. I'd already done a fair amount of work on the Jaques piece. So, the silver lining? Two contrasting classical monologues for the price of one!!

Keep checking back. Give us your feedback. Give us your support. Thanks!

THE LAUNCH by Lara

I'm very excited to announce that today, September 21st, 2009, is THE launch date for our Audition project! Kevin and I have 30 auditions to do in 30 days, while both working our full time jobs. It's a stretch, a challenge, we are both currently unrepresented and non-union but it's a challenge I am excited to take on! Today, I'm flying the friendly skies, but strategizing my auditions for this week. If all goes well with getting a spot in line tomorrow, I will be auditioning for The Flea Theater's non-union resident company The Bats, AND be able to check off my first audition for the project. Thanks for joining us here! Your support and feedback is appreciated!

Coming soon...

Watch for the launch!